Before sleep
goodnight sun
this noises punch my skull
they're getting me sick
it's like a sea of nails into the temples
let me sleep let me sleep please
i'm getting nervous and unforbearing with my self
i can't move i need oil in my legs
i'm stupid i'm stupid i'm drowning
slowly
i'm the deus ex machina of my despair
a cup of poison please
the Lord is sinking in the astral abyss
sweet forgetfulness covers my neck
what's that hairy pigmy jumping on the walls?
it's noisy it's annoying
i hate him i kill him i breath fire from my nares
help me i don't feel the earth anymore
catch me catch me i'm falling
i'm operating my self-destruction switch
i may be yellow at times
today i'm a tiger green
knives deep in the flesh mark my steps
i'll watch the stones fall delightfully
gosh it's late better sleep
tomorrow the butcher will caress me
it's almost Christmas after all
they'll make bloody cakes out of my guts
after all i've survived 20 years
think i'm getting useless, wanna a piece of cake?
i'm a crazy crayon crying on a scratch of paper all day long
- sometimes in the night, too
this walls are getting me paranoid
walls walls walls flowery walls everywhere
what's this terrible smell
i'm dirty up to the bones
don't wash me with sour anymore
it hurts and stinks and sparkles in the dark
i'm a monster in self-esteem
there's so much of it even flowers could cut me
the essence of my wounds is connecting to the earthquakes
i'm the foundations of the earth
and i'm trembling deep with fever
it's not my fault any longer if handles call me
me me me me me stop talking non-sense
i'll brush my teeths with glue
these noises this light
calm down i'll hole my lugholes
and i'll eat the oysters that dwell in my orbits
this is me this is me this is me save me
silence is getting too loud
let's turn off this psychotic light bulb
goodnight heavy toughts of nihilistic birds
flying up in the night sky
this time i can't follow
i must sleep sleep sleep
sleep sleep die sleep
say goodbye with your hand
this wind is a cold lance deep in the soil
something's entering my bed
it's furry it's gentle i'm scared
count one, two, three, it's perfection isn't it?
i'm Jesus, i've come to let you walk again
but hey i'll crack the legs of your mind once again
you're the old women in the kirks of morals
you curse yourself
you pathetic 17 years old nun
goodnight temples in the forests
i'll beat you up till your bones look like ice cream
chocolate with vanilla and strawberry too
i'm a mystical strainer
raise me up to the sky and you won't see anything
it's so opaque after all in my nil
i welcome you child of the nightbreeze
demonic pathetic unknown piece of brain
that's sick i'll change it
you quack sold me happiness
for a bag of silence
that surely was a cheat
worker bees take my hand
while i slip faithfully in nothingness
and i'm their queen i nourish the devil
with dark wintery emotions and suburban hopes
it's so hot in here
better add a vent to my wrist
and some lubricant too
obsessively compulsively astoundishly
gravity is filling every free hole in my bodies
ashes are gathering at the feet
they're white oh it's snow
and today i change my dress
i may get boring at times
i'll make a cap of my words
lies, dreams, all the finest stock
this chill threatens to be cold
i forgot i was in hell anyway
time time time it's getting late
harpies are coming in to get my fingers
leave me alone leave me alone i'm a toxic waste field
you can flush me in the toilet
i won't grow a crocodile, guaranteed
this ray of moonlight keeps pinching me
i think i'm welcoming comalike dreams
ancient comes the wind in the sky
memory gets lost it's time to die